Everyone around seems to be growing up so quickly
The things that i used to go through.. all of a sudden is happening on them
Seeing them going through all those stages that i used to go through made me think back on my younger days...
I thought about myself when i see them secretly sending messages behind their parents' back all the time...
I thought about myself when i knew they are secretly in a relationship...
I thought about myself when i found out that they were hurt in a relationship but yet they have to hide their emotions in front of their parents
Just like my younger days...
As bad as it seems, hiding.. controlling... i just felt that the problems they are facing are not as complex and complicated as the problems i face now. We face love problems but the love problem just gets more complex the older the person is.
i truly understand why people say the older you are the more you will what love is...
How i wish i can go back to those younger days with lesser responsibilities, lesser decisions to make, lesser things to ponder and think, decisions and responsibilites being less complex...
Now i truly understand why adults always ask you to cherish your childhood as once you've grown up everything changes... irreversibile changes....
I want to stop thinking... as thinking gives me more hope...
I want to stop hoping... as i know its never going to happen
I want to stop facing... as facing it makes me think and hope
I want this wishful thinking to stop...
I want it to stop....
Independent & Unfathomable
